Post by blatentlyobvious on Mar 19, 2008 0:02:18 GMT -5
Here is the last part of the story.
If you like it, i might just post a sequel!!
Watch for the corresponding Nick Fic!!
Chapter NINE:::::
I can’t comprehend the message, so I call Kevin.
“What do you mean leaving?” I say, skipping the niceties of hello. Kevin sighs on the other end of the line.
“That’s what our parents needed to talk to us about. The tour is restarting earlier. We’re flying out to New York tomorrow. Our flight leaves at 3:00. We’ll be gone at 2:00.” The sadness in his voice rings through. I want to be there right now, just so I can feel his embrace again.
“You know, Joe and Nick are going to have to tell Terry and Alicia. I can’t do it. I can’t believe you’re going a week earlier. How long will you be gone?” I ask dreading the answer.
“I know…we won’t be back in California for another three months.” My mouth opens and my eyes are burning with tears that won’t fall.
“I guess that’s what happens when you date a big star.” I try to say lightly. I don’t succeed in sounding any happier because my voice is hoarse.
“I am so sorry. It’s so hard to leave you. I'm going to miss you so much.” As I listen to him, I realize that at any moment he could end what we have. He’s going on tour, and all of his fans, his beautiful amazing fans, will be with him. And I won’t be.
“Um, Kevin, I…” I stop myself as I begin to cry. “If you need to end this, it’s okay.” I lie. My voice is overly emotional, and I'm at the breaking point. I feel my tears fall onto my lap.
“I really don’t want to. The tour is so hectic and busy and I don’t know when I could talk to you. Like I said I really don’t want to.” There was no “but” following that sentence. It was a statement, a very reassuring one as well.
“Good, because I lied. I don’t care if you’re gone that long Kevin. I will wait.” I say my voice quiet. “I love you.” I whisper. I'm not sure if Kevin hears it because there is a loud ‘Clack’.
“I'm sorry,” he says. “I dropped the phone.”
I feel like an idiot. I don’t repeat myself because suddenly, I'm not so sure that I want him to know. I don’t want to be the lead weight that is chained to his foot the whole time he is on this tour.
“Oh, I just said that I will wait for you.” I lie, sighing to myself wiping away more tears.
“Thank you. I have to go, but we leave for the airport at 2:00. Maybe we can officially say goodbye.” He says precariously. He must realize that I'm crying.
“Yeah. By Kev.” I say taking the phone away from my ear.
“By babe.” I hear him say. I close my phone, and slid down the side of my bed. I don’t try to hold back my tears anymore. I let all of them free fall while I lean my head against my little suitcase. I can’t imagine not having Kevin here. It won’t be like it was before I met him, I didn’t love him then. Two months. I think to myself. I compare it to things like school, two months of school goes by fast. But two days without Kevin drags on.
I'm not sure how I will get through this. Terry walks into my room, and Alicia follows her. Alicia’s are bloodshot, and she comes in and slides down beside me. Terry seems pretty calm. I wrap my arms around my sister and she cries softly.
“You guys, they had to go sometime.” Terry says coming over to comfort us.
“I guess.” Alicia says, bringing her head up from my shoulder.
“But you weren’t in love.” We say at the same time. I look at Alicia, surprised and she stares back at me with the same awed look.
Terry hangs her head down and sits on the edge of the bed. We all sit in silence, but we can sense each other’s thoughts as if they are streaming in front of our eyes. Concurrently we sigh.
“What are we going to do?” Alicia says.
“Look, guys, we had lives before them. We will now too. It’s not a big deal.” She says with frustration. I don’t believe her.
“How can you say something like that?” I say standing up defensively. “I love Kevin, and you expect me to go on like nothing has happened? And Alicia with Joe.” I say gesturing to her. I feel like I am taking out my emotions on my sister, but I can’t see how she can be so insensitive right now. “Don’t you feel sad that Nick is leaving? Do you have any ounce of love in you?” I nearly scream at her. She stands up from the edge of the bed. Alicia puts her hand on my shoulder, telling me not to overreact.
“Don’t. Don’t talk to me about him! I know how I feel. I feel the same about him as you do about Kevin, or you about Joe!” She yells. I am surprised that we are yelling at each other. I have never felt so angry at her. “But maybe, it would have been better if they never got famous, I never became obsessed with them, and we never fell in love with them.” Her voice is softer. “Maybe we were better apart. Maybe, we were meant for bigger things than each other.” She looks to me. “I love Nick, but I can’t let myself hold him back.” She hugs me and kisses my cheek. “I have to pack.” She says walking to her room.
“I should go too. Goodnight.” She hugs me and leaves me with my thoughts.
I think hard about what my sister said. Instead of packing, I pick up my pen and begin to do something that I haven’t done in a long time. I write a song. I know exactly what I plan to do with it. When I finish, I rub some of my favorite honey and rose perfume on it and seal the envelope. I tuck it into my purse, saving it for later. When I finish packing my clothes, I get in bed. I don’t say goodnight to Alicia or Terry, I just climb under my sheet and fall into slumber.
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I stare out the window, staring at the traffic on either side of us. I am actually dreading seeing Kevin. It will hurt so much more, after admitting to myself that I love him. The strength I had just nights before is gone, and my stomach feels like a drier set to tumble. I feel Alicia’s head bump my shoulder again. It was cute for the first half an hour, but now it is just annoying. I push it up again, sighing. Terry is on the other side of Alicia, listening to her iPod. We talked this morning, saying our apologies and I feel bad for the way her heart is aching. Something went on between her and Nick, but she refuses to open up about it.
Twenty minutes later, we’ve cleared the traffic and are pulling up to the house. My parents must sense the drastic change in mood because they have hardly said a word past “Okay, is everyone ready?” before we left.
I am the first to jump out of the car when it stops. I grab my bags from the back of the car and rush into the house. I throw my suitcase onto my bed and sit in my blue room. I wonder if I subconsciously knew how sad I would be when I came home, because the new color matches my mood perfectly.
I pull the letter out from my bag along with my phone. Looking at the time, I see that I still have forty minutes before the boys leave at two. I pass my parents, Terry and Alicia on the way out the door. I don’t stop to say goodbye, I just know that I need to do this before I chicken out. I run the whole way to their house. 2445. I walk to the door, and see that it is open. I walk in, looking for someone I know. Finally I see Nick by the stairs.
“Hey Nick.” I say warmly. He turns and smiles sadly. I walk over and hug him, but he doesn’t really return the warmth. “Is Kevin around?” I ask a little uncomfortable.
“Kevin is upstairs grabbing some clothes. You can just go up.” He says turning back to his own things. I turn and start up the stairs. I get to the top and see Kevin. I stop, and I feel a lump form in my throat. I walk to him and he embraces me. I rest my head on his broad shoulder and enjoy his arms around me. I know it will be the last time.
“Here,” I say stepping back a little and handing him the envelope. He smiles and takes it. “Don’t peak. You can’t read it until you are on the plane alright?” I say as tears creep up in my eyes. I place my hands on his face and kiss him hard. For a moment his is surprised, but then he returns the fervor. His lips move rhythmically while his tongue plays with mine. I'm crying now, and I pull back.
“Why did you do that?” His eyes are still clothes and his breathing is becoming smooth again. When he opens them, the smile fades and he reaches to wipe away my tears. I catch his hand and press it to my neck.
“Kevin, I love you,” I say pausing a little when I feel my knees get weak. I don’t give him enough time to say anything though, as I continue. “But I can’t hold you back. I don’t want to do that to you so…” I trail off. “Bye Kevin.” I kiss him lightly on his cheek, and run out of their house.
It takes all of my strength not to break down on the street. When I get to the house, I walk upstairs and fall onto my bed. I cry my heart out into my unfortunate pillow, and I hope that I haven’t just made the biggest mistake. I wasn’t brought up to be selfish, and I try to convince myself that this would be better for Kevin.
I feel my phone vibrate beside me thigh. I check the caller. It’s Kevin. I press the little red power button so I won’t have to be reminded of the terrible thing I’ve done to the only boy I’ve loved.
The end…… for now. ☺
If you like it, i might just post a sequel!!
Watch for the corresponding Nick Fic!!
Chapter NINE:::::
I can’t comprehend the message, so I call Kevin.
“What do you mean leaving?” I say, skipping the niceties of hello. Kevin sighs on the other end of the line.
“That’s what our parents needed to talk to us about. The tour is restarting earlier. We’re flying out to New York tomorrow. Our flight leaves at 3:00. We’ll be gone at 2:00.” The sadness in his voice rings through. I want to be there right now, just so I can feel his embrace again.
“You know, Joe and Nick are going to have to tell Terry and Alicia. I can’t do it. I can’t believe you’re going a week earlier. How long will you be gone?” I ask dreading the answer.
“I know…we won’t be back in California for another three months.” My mouth opens and my eyes are burning with tears that won’t fall.
“I guess that’s what happens when you date a big star.” I try to say lightly. I don’t succeed in sounding any happier because my voice is hoarse.
“I am so sorry. It’s so hard to leave you. I'm going to miss you so much.” As I listen to him, I realize that at any moment he could end what we have. He’s going on tour, and all of his fans, his beautiful amazing fans, will be with him. And I won’t be.
“Um, Kevin, I…” I stop myself as I begin to cry. “If you need to end this, it’s okay.” I lie. My voice is overly emotional, and I'm at the breaking point. I feel my tears fall onto my lap.
“I really don’t want to. The tour is so hectic and busy and I don’t know when I could talk to you. Like I said I really don’t want to.” There was no “but” following that sentence. It was a statement, a very reassuring one as well.
“Good, because I lied. I don’t care if you’re gone that long Kevin. I will wait.” I say my voice quiet. “I love you.” I whisper. I'm not sure if Kevin hears it because there is a loud ‘Clack’.
“I'm sorry,” he says. “I dropped the phone.”
I feel like an idiot. I don’t repeat myself because suddenly, I'm not so sure that I want him to know. I don’t want to be the lead weight that is chained to his foot the whole time he is on this tour.
“Oh, I just said that I will wait for you.” I lie, sighing to myself wiping away more tears.
“Thank you. I have to go, but we leave for the airport at 2:00. Maybe we can officially say goodbye.” He says precariously. He must realize that I'm crying.
“Yeah. By Kev.” I say taking the phone away from my ear.
“By babe.” I hear him say. I close my phone, and slid down the side of my bed. I don’t try to hold back my tears anymore. I let all of them free fall while I lean my head against my little suitcase. I can’t imagine not having Kevin here. It won’t be like it was before I met him, I didn’t love him then. Two months. I think to myself. I compare it to things like school, two months of school goes by fast. But two days without Kevin drags on.
I'm not sure how I will get through this. Terry walks into my room, and Alicia follows her. Alicia’s are bloodshot, and she comes in and slides down beside me. Terry seems pretty calm. I wrap my arms around my sister and she cries softly.
“You guys, they had to go sometime.” Terry says coming over to comfort us.
“I guess.” Alicia says, bringing her head up from my shoulder.
“But you weren’t in love.” We say at the same time. I look at Alicia, surprised and she stares back at me with the same awed look.
Terry hangs her head down and sits on the edge of the bed. We all sit in silence, but we can sense each other’s thoughts as if they are streaming in front of our eyes. Concurrently we sigh.
“What are we going to do?” Alicia says.
“Look, guys, we had lives before them. We will now too. It’s not a big deal.” She says with frustration. I don’t believe her.
“How can you say something like that?” I say standing up defensively. “I love Kevin, and you expect me to go on like nothing has happened? And Alicia with Joe.” I say gesturing to her. I feel like I am taking out my emotions on my sister, but I can’t see how she can be so insensitive right now. “Don’t you feel sad that Nick is leaving? Do you have any ounce of love in you?” I nearly scream at her. She stands up from the edge of the bed. Alicia puts her hand on my shoulder, telling me not to overreact.
“Don’t. Don’t talk to me about him! I know how I feel. I feel the same about him as you do about Kevin, or you about Joe!” She yells. I am surprised that we are yelling at each other. I have never felt so angry at her. “But maybe, it would have been better if they never got famous, I never became obsessed with them, and we never fell in love with them.” Her voice is softer. “Maybe we were better apart. Maybe, we were meant for bigger things than each other.” She looks to me. “I love Nick, but I can’t let myself hold him back.” She hugs me and kisses my cheek. “I have to pack.” She says walking to her room.
“I should go too. Goodnight.” She hugs me and leaves me with my thoughts.
I think hard about what my sister said. Instead of packing, I pick up my pen and begin to do something that I haven’t done in a long time. I write a song. I know exactly what I plan to do with it. When I finish, I rub some of my favorite honey and rose perfume on it and seal the envelope. I tuck it into my purse, saving it for later. When I finish packing my clothes, I get in bed. I don’t say goodnight to Alicia or Terry, I just climb under my sheet and fall into slumber.
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I stare out the window, staring at the traffic on either side of us. I am actually dreading seeing Kevin. It will hurt so much more, after admitting to myself that I love him. The strength I had just nights before is gone, and my stomach feels like a drier set to tumble. I feel Alicia’s head bump my shoulder again. It was cute for the first half an hour, but now it is just annoying. I push it up again, sighing. Terry is on the other side of Alicia, listening to her iPod. We talked this morning, saying our apologies and I feel bad for the way her heart is aching. Something went on between her and Nick, but she refuses to open up about it.
Twenty minutes later, we’ve cleared the traffic and are pulling up to the house. My parents must sense the drastic change in mood because they have hardly said a word past “Okay, is everyone ready?” before we left.
I am the first to jump out of the car when it stops. I grab my bags from the back of the car and rush into the house. I throw my suitcase onto my bed and sit in my blue room. I wonder if I subconsciously knew how sad I would be when I came home, because the new color matches my mood perfectly.
I pull the letter out from my bag along with my phone. Looking at the time, I see that I still have forty minutes before the boys leave at two. I pass my parents, Terry and Alicia on the way out the door. I don’t stop to say goodbye, I just know that I need to do this before I chicken out. I run the whole way to their house. 2445. I walk to the door, and see that it is open. I walk in, looking for someone I know. Finally I see Nick by the stairs.
“Hey Nick.” I say warmly. He turns and smiles sadly. I walk over and hug him, but he doesn’t really return the warmth. “Is Kevin around?” I ask a little uncomfortable.
“Kevin is upstairs grabbing some clothes. You can just go up.” He says turning back to his own things. I turn and start up the stairs. I get to the top and see Kevin. I stop, and I feel a lump form in my throat. I walk to him and he embraces me. I rest my head on his broad shoulder and enjoy his arms around me. I know it will be the last time.
“Here,” I say stepping back a little and handing him the envelope. He smiles and takes it. “Don’t peak. You can’t read it until you are on the plane alright?” I say as tears creep up in my eyes. I place my hands on his face and kiss him hard. For a moment his is surprised, but then he returns the fervor. His lips move rhythmically while his tongue plays with mine. I'm crying now, and I pull back.
“Why did you do that?” His eyes are still clothes and his breathing is becoming smooth again. When he opens them, the smile fades and he reaches to wipe away my tears. I catch his hand and press it to my neck.
“Kevin, I love you,” I say pausing a little when I feel my knees get weak. I don’t give him enough time to say anything though, as I continue. “But I can’t hold you back. I don’t want to do that to you so…” I trail off. “Bye Kevin.” I kiss him lightly on his cheek, and run out of their house.
It takes all of my strength not to break down on the street. When I get to the house, I walk upstairs and fall onto my bed. I cry my heart out into my unfortunate pillow, and I hope that I haven’t just made the biggest mistake. I wasn’t brought up to be selfish, and I try to convince myself that this would be better for Kevin.
I feel my phone vibrate beside me thigh. I check the caller. It’s Kevin. I press the little red power button so I won’t have to be reminded of the terrible thing I’ve done to the only boy I’ve loved.
The end…… for now. ☺
kind of saw that after I posted xD thank you for telling me though 
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lol