Chapter 6.
You gotta live to party, bust your move
Everybody’s in the groove
Tell the DJ to play my song
Are you ready to rock and roll.
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-Live to Party, Jonas Brothers.[/center]
He gives me the puppy dog pout. “Are you seriously going to leave me?” I hold back a long sigh.
“I’ve already told you, it’s the best thing for the band. It’s the only way we can reach our dreams and be successful. The recording studio in town isn’t good enough for it, and they’ve told us that. They helped me learn the sound system while I was still recuperating. Jake told me that it would be a pretty good CD but, they wouldn’t be able to promote us like we would need.” I bury my head into his chest. I knew this was going to happen. We’re currently lying on my bed. He came over to help me pack and we decided to take a break.
He sighed. “I guess I can understand that. How ‘bout we do it before you leave? Like since we won’t see each other for a while.”
I looked up at him. “Hell no. You know how I feel about that, I’m waiting for marriage.”
He gave me a puppy dog pout, again. “Please, I mean we love each other. It’s been a little over a year.”
I scoff. “Hell no. I don’t want to do it; I don’t care if it’s been a year. I told you that I’m waiting for my marriage so if you are the one that I marry, we’ll sleep then.” He puts his arms around me.
“I guess I can handle that.” He sighs.
“You knew where I stood before we started dating.” He smiles.
“Yean, that was the best day of my life when we did.” I bury my head back into his chest, and I feel his arms wrap securely around me. His body just feels so safe, like he’s my protector and I’m going to miss this when we head out. I sigh. “Come on, we have to finish. You promised me you would help me.” We unwind our bodies and get up off the bed quietly and head over to the drawers. I’m basically just going through clothes picking out the ones I don’t want then dumping the drawer into bags. It’s the easiest thing. We’re actually selling the house and gambling our life on the music. It was my mom’s idea. The money from the house will be used to buy a house in L.A. Was I shock? Oh yes, because I wouldn’t have thought she wanted to leave her job but she said we’re going to get signed and that we are going to need a manager and she would rather be the manager than hire someone else to do it. Get me?
“Where are you putting your books?” James looks over at me holding up several books. I point to the box sitting by me.
“Over here, just try to make them fit. I have too many books.” He just laughs. I honestly don’t know what’s going to happen to us. It’s going to be a long hard ride. I just hope that everything will be okay. I walk over to my iHome and push play. The Jonas Brothers come blasting through my speakers. I turn it on shuffle and walk back to my drawers opening them one at a time. I grab one and take it over to my bed. I grab the jeans and take them out; I have to go through them to see which ones fit. James comes over to help me organize the crap. He pulls out a pair of guy jeans as I put some clothes in a big duffle bag. “What the hell are these? You won’t sleep with me but yet you’ll sleep with a random guy. God Hayley.” And with that James throws the jeans down and walks away. I hear him stomp down the stairs and go out the door.
I grab the jeans and look at them. They aren’t some random guy’s. They are Rick’s,
my brother.[/b] I went to my window and saw James get into his car and back up into the night. He was gone.
The next morning I get ready for the day ahead of me. Packing is never fun. Moving is never fun. The only good part is we want to be able to play in front of more crowds and different groups of people. I walk into the bathroom and look up at the clock, 7AM. I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night; I was trying to get James to talk to me. I called him, texted him. Nothing. I know he’s super pissed but I mean what the heck? He took it way out of proportion. I don’t understand why he got so mad at me for finding guy jeans in my drawer with all of my brothers running around. Gees Louise. I honestly think James is scared of us breaking up and he had to find something to fight me over and that just happened to be what broke him down. I don’t want to break up with him, James is amazing. I love him to death and I want to be with him, not without him.
I walk out of the bathroom and lay back down on my bed. My phone vibrates telling me I have a text message. I grab it before it falls off the table I have it sitting on.
“Hey, only two more days, you better be ready! The plane is going to leave at 9 in the morning. I love you.” It was from Brandon. Thankfully my mom is buying a house that is big enough for all of us to have a room to ourselves. Which is good, I really didn’t want to share a room with a guy. Of course, whenever we go on tour I’ll pretty much be sharing a whole bus with guys. I stare up at my ceiling with my phone in hand and look at it. I go to my recent calls and call James. After several rings a girl answers the phone.
“Hewwo?” “Hey sweetie, it’s Hayley. Is your brother there?” I breathe a sigh of relief. It’s only his five year old sister.
“Uhhhh, I think so. Hold on.” I hear her walk through the house and knock on a door; I’m assuming James isn’t up yet. He groans and I hear Emily walk into the room.
“Here James. It’s your phone.” I hear a thump and know that she threw it to him, and it might have landed on the floor. I hear James curse and then pick up the phone. Yepp, it landed on the floor.
“Hello?” He sounded like he gotten much sleep. “Can I explain?” He sighs.
“Yeah. I don’t care anymore.” Sure, if you didn’t care then why didn’t you answer the phone when I called several freaking times last night? “You know how I have a lot of brothers?”
“Well, of course. They are all in the band with you.” “Exactly. So therefore a lot of our clothes get mixed up and those were Rick’s jeans, not just some random guys. Do you believe me?” He lets out another sigh.
“Yeah, I guess with the fact you’re leaving is making me a little on edge. And I wanted to fight you about it. I’m sorry Hayley.” “It’s okay James. I’ll see you later okay? Go get ready for school.”
“Bye babe. I love you.” “I love you too James.” I hang up and get off of my bed slowly. It’s going to be another long day.
I walk over to the open boxes to put more of my stuff in there. I grab some clothes and throw them in some of the duffle bags lying around. I have too much crap is all I can figure. I’ve had some of my stuff since I was little. Some of it I decided to keep for some weird reason, who knows. I know that when we get to L.A. things will be hard. My mom has been out there a couple of times and she is there now getting everything ready. She left a car at the airport so when we land we will be able to get to the house like planned. I’ve got a party tonight, everyone leaving does. It should be interesting. Anyone who wants to come is welcome to come. I walk out of my room and into the kitchen. Justin is sitting in there. “What are you doing up? It’s way too early.”
I walk over to the counter and grab the box of cereal. “I couldn’t sleep; I was trying to call James all night. I finally talked to him this morning and he apologized. I just don’t know what to do anymore.” Justin looks at me in confusion.
“What do you mean by that?” I sigh, man is it just me or am I sighing a lot lately?
“It’s just, he wants sex. He told me that last night. That’s part of the reason he stormed out of here like he did.”
Justin looks at me. “I was wondering about that.”
I nod. ‘Yeah, it’s just, I’m not going to give it to him but he obviously thinks I am. It’s just not possible because I’m waiting for marriage and he should know that. I’ve told him that a million times so I don’t know what’s going to happen to us when I go to L.A. I don’t know if he’ll go and be with a girl and sleep with her to get what he won’t get from me.”
“Do you really love him Hayley?” Justin just looks at me.
I look at him. “Yeah. I’ve helped him through so much. He’s helped me. It’s been a year and we’re still going. I just don’t want it to fall apart because I’m living my dream.”
Justin grabs my hand. “It’ll be okay. Y’all will make it through, I know you will. It’ll just be hard. It’ll be harder than any relationship. I’m speaking from experience and you know that.” Justin’s ex-girlfriend moved to Ohio and they lost it. He couldn’t ever see her and he got word she was cheating and got pictures to prove it. He went up there to surprise her and caught her on the couch making out with some guy. Needless to say, it didn’t end well.
“I know, it’s just so hard to have to wonder if he’s hooking up because I won’t give it to him. It’s been a year and I just…ugh. I don’t even know anymore.” I put my head down on the table. I feel Justin’s arms around me and he lifts me out of my chair. He takes me upstairs and puts me on my bed. “Go back to sleep. Wake up in like five hours. You’ll feel better.” I nod and put my covers over my tired body. I hear Justin pattering around my room and I know he’s packing for me. That’s what I love about my brothers, they always have my back. I feel the sleep soon take over me and I’m out within the next minute.
“Hayley I love you.” “Oh my god, there’s Brandon!” “Sign these for me!” Those are all the screams from the venue. All we did was get out of the car and there are people surrounding us. “Rick, where’s the baby?” Wow. Is this just the start of it? We walk into the arena after signing some autographs and get ready for the show. We were immediately whisked into hair and make-up. After they get us glamorous, we go into wardrobe to get an outfit for tonight. They give me black converse shoes, red skinny jeans, and a white shirt with a black vest. I quickly get changed knowing we have to be on stage in about fifteen minutes. After I change I go into the guy’s dressing room, after knocking. I walk in and grab a couch with Rick. Abigail is on the floor playing with blocks and my mom is watching her. As soon as I sit down, she gets up and walks over to me sitting in my lap expecting me to read a book to her but I don’t have a book near me, the only thing I have is a sheet of what we’re going to do tonight. I grab that and look at her. She nods saying its okay, she just wants me to read something to her. “The first song is one called Thinking and then we introduce ourselves and all that jazz, then we play a couple more songs and Justin talks then I say something about how I’m going to show Blake up and how we’re going to have a friendly competition and such. Then we’ll play some more songs and we’ll take a bow and that’s it.” She nods and then points to the book on the floor. “You coulda just read that to me.” She laughs and gets off my lap and the rest of the guys get in the room from changing and such. We form a huddle and start to pray. Then we head off to the sides of the stage that we’re supposed to be on. A song starts to come on and Brandon and Rick come from the back of the stage dancing. This show is going to be amazing.[/i]
I wake up and Justin is sitting in my room on the floor. I look at the clock and it says it’s two o’clock. I get out of bed and stretch. “Hey buddy” Justin looks up at me.
“Do you feel better?” I look at him.
“Yeah, pretty much.” I step over to the boxes and see all of my stuff in there. Justin really got to work. He’s a neat freak and I know all my crap is organized and it took him half the time as it did for James and me to throw the crap in there. “Where are the jeans that James found?” I look over at the duffle bags.
“In one of those over there, I can’t remember which one. It really doesn’t matter we’re going to be living in the same house.” He smiles.
“Yeah, that house is supposedly supposed to be humongous. God, I can’t wait.” I laugh at Justin and help him up.
“Come on my brother. We’ve got to get ready for the party tonight. Blake is going to come by here after work and pick us up and Rick and Brandon are going by his girlfriend’s house to pick her up on their way back from work. It was their last day today. How do you think it went?” My job went bye bye when I was in the hospital for so long.
Justin grabs my hand and pulls me into a hug. “I hope you can find some clothes in this mess.” I laugh at him again and walk over to the bags.
“Eh, it’s not my fault you’re like this insanely neat freak. You’re just weird like that.” I grab a simple dress out of the bag. It’s a v neck type dress with the top part black and then it splits off and has gold and purple horizontal stripes running down it. I walk to my bathroom and start the shower. I strip down and get in. After shampooing my hair and bathing, I turn off the water and get out. I dry off and look in the mirror. I decide to leave my hair curly and slip on my under garments and dress. I put on some foundation and a bit of eyeliner. Nothing too much, but nothing too simple; it’s just how I like it. I walk back to my room and curl up into a ball onto my bed. I know I won’t get much sleep in the days to come so might as well get some now. I’ve just been sleeping a lot because I have nothing else to do but pack. After a few minutes I fall asleep.
“Dude, don’t wake her. Just pick her up and put her in the car. You know how bitchy girls can be.” I don’t know why the voice is in my dream. “Dude, just do it. She’s not heavy. She would rather you wake her up than make her late.”
“Well, why don’t you do it?” There’s shuffling around me.
“Cause you’re there and I’m here.” I hear a sigh and I feel like I’m being picked up. I’m assuming that it’s time for the party. I let the person take me down the stairs and out the door. I cuddle up to them knowing who it is in a heartbeat. He holds me tighter and kisses my forehead. I hear footsteps on concrete and know we’re almost to the car. I open my eyes and see the shaggy hair. “Thanks boyfriend.” He looks down at me in confusion. He probably thought I was still asleep because I never said anything to him. “I really thought you were asleep. That was the whole point of me carrying you. After all, you’re really heavy.” He fakes sighs. I reach up and lightly hit him on his arm. “I’m not that heavy.” He laughs. “I’m joking.” He puts me down outside of the car and kisses me on my forehead as he sets me down. I get into the driver’s side and Justin gets in the back. James hops into the passenger side and we set off for the Legion. It’s going to be hard to leave all of this. This has been my home for years and now we’ve living our dream and moving to LA. It’s definitely going to be different. None of us say anything on the drive up and I’m kinda relived to not have to.
“We’re almost there.” Justin points out the obvious.
“I thought Blake was supposed to pick us up?” I look back at him in confusion as I find a parking place in the mess of cars.
Justin laughs. “His friend’s car broke down. Rick and Brandon are picking him up. Aren’t you so glad James has a car?” Everyone laughs and we head into the kitchen side of the legion. I’ve been up here so many times helping out and all that jazz so I know where everything is, not that it matters tonight. There is going to be a ton of food but that doesn’t matter because I know I probably won’t eat it because I’ll be way too nervous about having to say goodbye to everyone. Whenever I get super nervous, I can’t eat anything because I’ll throw up. Remember how I said I didn’t like speaking in front of crowds before? It has gotten better. I’m relieved.
“Oh my gosh! There’s Hayley!” And so the party begins.
JB is coming up in the next chapter, I wanted to get everything in here.
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