Can't Have You (A Nick One-Shot 2 parter)

[Sunshine93]

Okay so I was listening to Cant Have You...and bam. \
hope you enjoy!1
and if you like a certain quote...please tell me b/c I love feedback!!!


Nick stared at the shattered glass vases on the floor and at his hands that shown red with blood. It didn’t hurt anymore; he couldn’t feel anything. He was numb. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
She stood there in front of him. "I’m sorry, Nick.." She whispered.
"Can’t..can’t we work it out?" His voice cracked. She gave a quiet, bitter laugh.
"Honey.." She reached out and touched his cheek. Her touch made him flinch, yet he craved more. She slowly traced his jaw line with her fingers, then her hand dropped.
"I’m leaving.." She said, her eyes had the glow of tears on them.
Nick shook his head. "No. No you’re not leaving. You can’t."
She bit her lip. Her hair fell in her face. Nick slowly put it behind her ear. His hands shook as he slowly traced her jaw-line and neck with his fingers. She drew in a sharp breath and yanked his hand down. Tears now flowed freely down her cheeks. "No, Nick." She said firmly through her tears. Nick’s lip trembled. "Why are you l-leaving me?" He refused to cry. He just couldn’t.
She stared at him. His green eyes piercing through his heart and soul. The message was crystal clear and that scared him.
“You know why, Nick.” She said quietly. Nick’s expression was desperate. He didn’t know what he did. He didn’t realize what he did. She went to turn around, but he grabbed her wrist. Why was he begging? His mind was fuzzy. He couldn’t think.
“Just think about this...” Nick forced out the words. “Please.”
She didn’t turn around. Please look at me, He silently cried. Please. He wanted to see her eyes...But she never turned around. She didn’t even look at him. She shook her head and pulled herself away from him. She shook her head. “There’s a letter, Nick.”
Nick stared at her. What was she talking about? She answered his un-spoken question.
“It explains it, Nick. Just..read it.” She walked to the door and opened it.
“Please, wait!” Tears flowed down his face and he called her name.
Her hand lingered on the doorknob; and Nick sucked in his breath. Her long fingers fumbled with the doorknob, then they began to shake. Her shoulders shook and she cried out. She shook her head again. “Goodbye, Nick.”
He called her name. Every step she took away from him, a knife dug deeper into his heart. Nick was gasping for breath. When she slammed the door, his heart shattered. She was gone. Nick was crying. He looked around until he found the letter. It was in the dining room. Nick ran to it and opened it up. He could smell the ink of the pen. Lavender. Her favorite scent. Nick’s eyes traveled over every letter, every curly-qu, every space. She signed her name at the bottom. Nick stared in disbelief. That couldn’t be the end. He turned the page around. Nothing. He grabbed the envelope and opened it. Nothing. His brown eyes darted around the room. There had to be more. She couldn’t just leave it at that. She didn’t explain. She wrote ‘I Love You’. Nick scoffed as a tear drop fell and ruined those three words. Lies. They were true. Nick’s arm dropped to his side. He crumpled the piece of paper. She didn’t love him. She lied. She wouldn’t have walked out. Nick didn’t know what to do. He was shaking. He then screamed. He rounded on the table behind him and crashed his arm a crossed it. His screams mixed with the sound of breaking glass. He then collapsed to the floor. His hand’s began to sting. Nick stared at the shattered glass vases on the floor and at his hands that shown red with blood. It didn’t hurt anymore; he couldn’t feel anything. He was numb. He wrapped his arms around himself and rocked back and forth. His heard footsteps, yelling. His family. Nick looked up just in time to see Kevin and Joe flying down the stairs. It was slow motion. Nick stood up and looked at them. Their faces were in shock. Time seemed to slow down for him. He saw Kevin screaming and Joe flying towards him. They didn’t get to him, though. Nick shouted, turned around, and took off. His mind was somewhere else. He could feel the letter still in his hand. Joe was screaming his name, Kevin was crying out for help. Nick took the corner and ran out the back door. It was raining. Nick ran through the backyard and into the front yard. He began running. He had to get away. He didn’t notice that his hands and arms were bleeding. He didn’t notice the car that almost hit him as he ran out into the street. He could hear his brothers call frantically for him. Nick was fast. He was faster than Kevin and Joe. He knew it, they knew it. Nick picked up speed. His brothers cries turned into screams of warning. Nick didn’t see it. He didn’t see the lights of the on coming car. He turned just in time to see it. His life flashed before his eyes. Suddenly, he felt arms around him and he was thrown to the side. He crashed onto the cold, wet street. He began struggling. He didn’t realize it was his brothers holding onto him. Joe held onto him firmly. “It’s okay, Nick! It’s okay...it’s okay!” He cried as his little brother jerked him around. Joe was crying. Kevin grabbed Nick and made his brother look at him. When Nick didn’t obey, Kevin grabbed his brothers face and held it. “Listen to me, Nick.” He shouted over the rain. “It’s okay.”
Nick broke down. He began sobbing. His whole world was crashing. His life was shattering down upon him and he felt like he had no place to run. He was suffocating. His hair fell down in his eyes, and blinded him from the world. He reached up to move his curly locks away, when Joe grabbed his hand.
“Oh god...” His brother moaned. “Oh god...” Joe was shaking. He held onto Nick. “It’s going to be okay, Nick.”
Nick was gasping for breath. He saw Kevin reach down and snatch the letter from his hand. It was blood-stained and the ink was no longer readable. Nick closed his eyes. He felt tired. His heart was beating at the speed of light..then he slowed down. He was slipping away. He could heard Joe’s frantic voice “Stay with me Nick!”
But Nick didn’t obey. He was gone into a deep sleep.

[michelle]

i sat here reading that with my mouth hanging wide open....lol i loved it! very intense and very well written, as always! i seriously love your writing...

[michelle]

oh, btw....the last two paragraphs were my favorite...that was just...wow.

[Sunshine93]

Oh thank you so much Michelle! that really does mean alot to me. (it really does.) thank you so much and Im going to write part two now

[Sunshine93]

Nick slowly opened his eyes. He was laying in bed. He tried to look around; but he couldn’t see anyone. He slowly sat up in bed. His head was throbbing. He put his hand to his head and felt the soft material of a bandage. He held his two hands close to his face. They had been wrapped up.
“You’re lucky that’s all that happened to you.”
Nick’s eyes shot up. Joe was sitting at the edge of his bed.
Nick couldn’t talk for a moment...he couldn’t find the words to speak.
“I k-know.” he finally managed to say after what seemed like forever.
Joe nodded, then looked at his younger brother. “Nick what were you doing?”
“What do you mean?” Nick asked. God, would the room ever stop spinning?
“Why were you out there?”
“She...she left.” Nick said, avoiding the gaze of his brother’s intense brown eyes. Everyone said Joe could stare down anyone...they were right. The room was quiet for a moment, until Joe finally replied. His voice was hollow. “That was quite a scene you made last night.”
Nick felt tears welling up. No, not now. Wait til he leaves, his mind screamed. It didn’t work. Joe watched Nick’s tears fall from his cheeks and land on his bandages; the material soaked up the misery as Nick silently cried. After a moment, he took a shaky breath and calmed down.
“I miss her so much, Joe.” Nick said, his voice shaking.
Joe said nothing; Nick took it as permission to go on.
“I need her, Joe. I can’t live without her. She just left...I can’t..”
“Stop.” Joe said, abruptly. Nick looked at him. “What?” he mouthed.
Joe shook his head. “Stop it now. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want to hear about that....that..” Joe stood up and ran a shaky hand through his hair. “Don’t talk about her.” He said, his lip trembling as he looked around the room.
Nick stared at his brother. “Joe what’s wrong with you?”
“I don’t want to hear about that witch.” Joe spat.
Nick shot up out of bed and almost fell over from the dizziness. He marched towards his brother and slammed him against the wall. “Don’t. Call. Her. That.” He hissed. Tears fell from Joe’s eyes as he pushed Nick away. “I hate her Nick. I HATE her!”
Nick stumbled backwards. “Why?” he screamed, throwing out his hands.
Joe looked at the wall and shook his head. He said something.
“What?” Nick asked sharply.
Joe’s head snapped in his direction. They locked eyes. “I hate her for what she did to you, Nick. She doesn’t deserve you..she..” He shook his head. “You should go to bed.”
Nick glanced at his bed. “If I fall asleep...I won’t wake up again.” He forced out the words. He then heard a sound that made his heart turn cold. Joe was laughing. It was a bitter, hollow, cold laugh with no hint of happiness. Nick rounded on his brother. Joe continued to laugh. “Do you hear yourself, Nick? Do you really know what you’re saying?”
Nick’s hands shook. “I can’t live without her, Joe.”
Joe was sobbing at this point. Nick was afraid that his brother had snapped.
“Why, Nick?” He screamed. “She’s nothing?!? Why??”
“You don’t understand!!” Nick screamed back.
Joe ran towards his brother and grabbed him by the arms. “Then help me understand, Nick! What makes her so amazing?! She almost killed you. Do you understand that?”
Nick wrenched away from his brothers grip. “You don’t know what your talking about!”
“ME?” Joe screeched. “I don’t know what I’m talking about? You better tell me now what makes her so special because she is NOTHING to me, Nick. I hate her and I hope she..”
“Stop it!!!” Nick cried, waving his hands. “Please stop it.” The room was spinning and his lost his balance. He ended up on the floor. Joe collapsed down beside him. “Help me understand Nick.” He said through his tears.
Nick was shaking his head. Please, please stop...His body begged. “You don’t know..” He whispered.
“I don’t know what?” Joe said quietly.
Nick’s looked at Joe. “I can’t live without her, Joe.” He sobbed. “She’s my everything. I hear her voice in my head...I don’t know why. She never told me. She...” Nick’s jaw trembled and he couldn’t speak. He shook his head and cried. Joe wrapped his arms around his little brother and he let him cry his heart out. What seemed like forever later, Nick rested his head on Joe’s shoulder. Joe glanced up at the ceiling. His own tears fell onto Nick’s soft, brown curls.
“God, Nick.” Joe said, trying to control his voice, “Just help me understand...”
Nick gasped for breath and pulled away from his older brother. “I can’t...” He mouthed.
Joe let go of Nick and stood up. He paced around the room. Nick pulled up his knees and rested his elbows on his knees, and his head in his hands. His world was tumbling down and he couldn’t tell anyone. He couldn’t say the words. He couldn’t find them. It seemed he had forgotten how to speak. After a while, he felt someone sit down in front of him. He looked up and saw Joe.
“Just tell me Nick..” He whispered.
“I c-can’t.” Nick whispered back. He felt so alone...so alone. Joe hung his head, then glanced back at Nick. He held out a notebook and a pen. Nick slowly took it. Joe gave a desperate smile. “Then write it.” He begged, his voice hoarse. Nick stared down at the blank notebook. When he didn’t reply, Joe stood up and made his way to the door. His shaky hand lingered on the doorknob. He hung his head, then looked back down at Nick. They locked eyes. Joe forced himself to speak.
“Try...” He stopped and closed his eyes. The tears still came down his face. “Try to make it a hit.” He tried to smile, but he couldn’t. “I think everyone is tired of hearing S.O.S...”
Nick stared up at him with hollow eyes. He didn’t say anything. Joe nodded, and then was gone. Nick’s eyes stayed on the door, then slowly returned to what he held in his bandaged up hands. A tear dropped down on the notebook and rolled off the side, and landed on the floor and seeped into the carpet. Nick drew another shaky breath. If only he could disapear...

[michelle]

i need to find other ways to tell you how much i love this!! lol i need to find new words...
but yeah....i loved it. the intensity is amazing and it gave me chills reading this.
you're awesome. plain and simple. lol

[Sunshine93]

Oh my! Thank you so much Michelle! when ideas pop into my head I just have to write it. But thank you so so much. wow, Chills? wow!!
thanks agaiN!! more soon!!

[michelle]

I should do that more often...the whole 'thought popping into head so i should write it down' thing. lol cause my problem is i'll have a great idea, not write it down and then for the life of me can't remember later...lol i think you've inspired me to maybe do a few one shots....i need a break from my other story cause i don't know if i'm going the right way with it or not...stupid writer's block. lol

[Sunshine93]

thats exactly what i do. when I get stuck in my story (which Im kinda stuck on please be mine at the moment), I write one-shots! lol
I cant wait to read your new one shots!
and more of this short-story will come soon

[Sunshine93]

It had been four hours. Or was it five? Nick didn’t know. He just knew he hadn’t moved in a long time. He sat with his knees up propped against the bed holding the notebook and pen. His eyes were dry. He knew he couldn’t cry anymore. Not for a long time, anyway. He took a deep breath and looked at the door. It was cracked. Joe didn’t leave it that way, he shut it hours ago. And Nick hadn’t moved since he left. No. It was Kevin who left it cracked. He had come upstairs about an hour after Joe had left Nick. Kevin had slowly sat down in front of his younger brother and looked at him. Nick didn’t say anything. Kevin sighed. "Joe’s not angry with you Nick...you know that, right?" He asked quietly. Nick had slowly glanced up and looked at him. He said nothing.
1. Kevin shook his head and looked at the floor. "He loves you Nick and he can’t bare to see you like this. And usually that leads to him hating whoever did this to you." Kevin gave a bitter laugh. "You should know Joe by now. He is super protective."
Nick’s jaw trembled. He knew if he opened his mouth to speak, he would never be able to stop crying.
Kevin studied his little brother’s face. He took a deep breath after a few minutes. "He told me what he asked you to do..."
Nothing. Kevin even wondered if Nick was even there. Really there. But he was. He was soaking up every word. Begging to find his voice to reply. But it was somewhere far away. Along with his heart and soul.
Kevin made a sound between a laugh and a cry. As tears began to coat his hazel eyes, he looked around the room. "God Nick, please say something...." He then glanced back at his little brother and what was left of Nick’s heart shattered. His older brother was crying. Pleading to help him. Kevin never cried; he was the strong one. Joe cried, Nick cried, but not Kevin. Kevin was always there to help him. And now he was sitting in front of him, and Nick had nothing to say. He knew he was hurting his brothers by not talking...but part of him didn’t care. They didn’t really know what he was going through. No body knew...
Suddenly Kevin stopped crying, looked at the clock, then looked at Nick. “Have you checked your blood sugar today? Have you even thought of changing your Omni-pod?”
Nick stared at his brother. He had completely forgot. He slowly shook his head.
All hell rose in Kevin. He yanked Nick to his feet in one fail swoop and dragged him to the bathroom. He lead Nick to the wall and pushed him to it. He then began going through drawers. Nick looked in the mirror and saw Kevin’s reflection. Kevin found what he was looking for and slammed the items on the counter. The two locked eyes in the reflection. Kevin scoffed as he got everything ready. “I can’t believe you, Nick. You don’t even care.”
Nick slowly crossed his arms. He was so dizzy...
Kevin snatched his hand out and grabbed Nick’s. He brought it down to the counter.
“Which finger do you want me to prick?” Kevin said, gritting his teeth. Nick wiggled his first finger.
Kevin quickly pricked his little brother’s finger, then looked at the little hand-held machine. Kevin was past the point of sympathy for his younger brother. He shook his head and grabbed a new Omni-pod and whipped Nick around, and lifted his shirt up on his side. He was fuming as he took the old one off. “I will NOT let you kill yourself, Nick.”
He changed his brother’s Omni-pod and then pulled his shirt down. He then began cleaning up all of his brothers diabetes things. When he was done he washed his hands, then grabbed Nick roughly by the shoulder. He dragged him back into the room and pushed him on the bed. Kevin began pacing. He would glance at Nick every so often. “I didn’t want to get mad at you, Nick. I really didn’t. But when I saw the way you are? Nick she’s not worth it! NO girl is. I can’t believe you’d put your health at risk. Do you realize what could have happened? You don’t just FORGET to do these things, Nick. You willingly forgot and Im disgusted with you.” Kevin threw his hands up. “This isn’t WORTH it!!”
Finally Nick had enough. He jumped up. “Stop it!” His voice was hoarse. He grabbed Kevin and pushed him back. “Stop it! You don’t know what your talking about.”
Nick had pushed Kevin so hard that his brother crashed into the door. Nick regretted it instantly, but he couldn’t apologize. Kevin looked at Nick, then shook his head. “Call me when the real Nick comes back. Because this..” He said, motioning to Nick, “Is a pathetic excuse of my brother.” He then walked out. Nick was waiting for the slam of the door, but it never came. Nick slowly took steps back until he hit the bed. He slid down to the floor and stared at the door.

Nick had now finally realized how long it had been. Four and a half hours. Two hours since Joe had left him, and 45 minutes since Kevin left him. Nick slowly laid down on the floor and curled up in a ball. He was now truly alone...


I think they're might be ONE more part. lol but..enjoy!!!